I'm Dead Inside

I can't look at myself in the mirror anymore
Without crying or an uproar.
Punching walls and bruised knuckles
dealing with this is a bigger struggle.

Tell me you love me, erase the pain
or I'll do it myself and slit my vains.
It feels like I'm dying inside,
I can't run from it, cannot hide.

I can't escape this hell, I've tried
But there's still rage inside.
I'm sure if you'll look you'll see,
the emptiness inside of me.

Get me through this nightmare,
my heart is beginning to tare.
Chew my heart up and spit it out,
My head is screaming, it's beginning to shout.

You see what you want and take what you want,
but it's too late, I'm dead inside.

Tribute to wonders... Heath Ledger

Heath Ledger was a great actor and should be remembered for his wonderful movies. I know he died a while ago, but I never realized the briliance of this man until last night. Where after watching The Dark Knight-Batman I ended up crying myself to sleep. There will be no other actor who can do waht he has done with television. Heath Ledger was not just some random hot actor, he was an artist. It took me over two months to figure out he was Jacob in the Brother's Grimm. He can be any person he wants to be on screen and anywhere else. It is a God awful shame we had to lose such beauty as him. God bless his soul, and forever live the rememberance of Heath Ledger.

Heath Ledger Movies:

The Dark Knight

I'm not There

Candy

Casanova

Brokeback Mountain

The Brothers Grimm

Lords of Dogtown

The Patriot

Monster's Ball

... and over twenty more

Tears will forever be shed for Heath Ledger

Waiting

I sit up in my chair, waiting
I stare outside my window, waiting
Take walks in the park, waiting
I lay down in my lonely bed, waiting
I hold myself close, tightly, waiting
I cry myself to sleep, waiting
I dream to pass time, I'm still waiting
I stare at the clock, waiting
I scuplt your image, I'm still waiting
Where's the knight in shining armor, I'm waiting
I've opened my heart, waiting
My life is stuffed in a bloody blender, waiting
Please Lord I'm tired of waiting
When will it be my turn to stop waiting
When will I fall in love with love and not waiting
When will i finally say I'm done waiting for you
But it'll never stop
I'll always be here,
I'll always be here...
Waiting

Movie of the Week

I have 2 movies this time.

Curse of the Golden flower
You have to see it from beginning to end to really understand it.
There's this asian guy wo is like a prince and is sleeping with his step mother and then sleeps with his real sister but doesn't know that she is his sister. Neither one of them knew and everyone dies except the emperor and his slutty wife.

Front of the Class
Is about a boy with terrets (or how ever you spell it) and it explains how terrible life was to him but in the end he found peace. This was based off of a true story and there was not one scene where I didn't cry or smiled. Believe me if you are a big water bug and a big softe then watch this movie with a bunch of tissue.

Song of the Week

Single Ladies by Beyonce is banging and Beyonce is not one of my typical favorite singers. But this song and the music videos is totally awesome. If you ain't heard it or seen the video then go see it now!!!